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10 Months – C.I. “Mapping”

Hello Folks! A quick update on where I’m at. I had my ten month check-in and ‘mapping’ today (mapping = cochlear implant lingo for when they put you in the testing booth to see how your bionic ear is performing). I had pretty amazing test scores last February when I was at the 90-day mark – my speech recognition was at 94%; therefore, I didn’t expect much improvement, BUT to my surprise I did improve to 96%. At this point, in my C.I. journey, it’s about clarity more than volume – how I understand speech is what’s important. What I did find interesting is when we were in the testing booth, we discovered I did not do well understanding male voices, but scored 100% with female voices. Something we will keep an eye on over the coming months with the new programming. It’s all these really fine ‘hearing details’ you don’t think about or realize……For those of you that can hear, APPRECIATE IT!!

When the green light is on, it’s being programmed

I am not excited to be in the testing booth, can you tell?

I would also like to give you an update on where I’m at since going to Mayo Clinic for the the dizziness and balance issues I’m still having. I’ve been told what I have is called PPPD (Persistent Postural-Perceptual Dizziness) – Yeah, I never heard of it either! In a nutshell, PPPD is motion sensitivity triggered from the trauma of the cochlear implant surgery…..I’m not going to mislead you, cochlear implant surgery is quite invasive and as a result, I developed this complex vestibular disorder where your brain becomes hypersensitive to your own movement as well as things moving around you (visual vertigo). I feel intense discomfort in places like supermarkets, moving vehicles or places that have busy patterned surfaces. If you’ve ever been on a cruise and get off the boat, but still have the feeling like you’re on the boat, that is how I feel on a daily basis – a floating feeling. My head feels foggy and I lose my balance easily. I am told I can overcome this and holding on to hope that I will.

Basically, the only thing I can do is to keep pushing through daily life – even when I feel uncomfortable and want to vomit! I have to keep putting myself in those situations so my brain can begin to reset itself. I’ve also been going to vestibular therapy at Mayo Clinic and put in this machine called a Computerized Dynamic Posturography with Immersion Virtual Reality (CDP-IVR). It has been very helpful in determining my triggers and helps the therapist give me exercises to help work through those triggers.

Computerized Dynamic Posturography with Immersion Virtual Reality (CDP-IVR) Machine

As far as the tear (or what they call a fistula), it has not healed yet and I’m told to give it some time – how much time?….I have no idea, but when I move my ear or put my finger in it to clean in and around it, my world spins!…..I can’t go around with a dirty ear – HOW GROSS would that be?!

It is my plan to have the other ear done (once my balance is back on track).  No, I’m not crazy – it’s just, I’M HEARING THAT GOOD (shouting from the rooftops) and I want to hear in stereo!  All dizziness aside, having the cochlear implant has changed my life for the better despite taking on this not so nice part of it.

Lots to catch you up on over the last several months!  Yes, my main focus has been on hearing, but I’m also learning sign language. I went to a 5 day sign language immersion camp – no talking, only sign back in July. I will share that with you in my next post. Stay tuned…..

Taking the Good with the Bad

Yesterday, marked 6 months since the activation of my cochlear implant. To say that it has changed my life is an understatement! It has opened up a new world for me in more ways than one – Let’s just say, sometimes you have to take the good with the bad:

* One of the big changes has been in my ability to understand speech. My speech recognition is so good now that when I talk on the telephone, I no longer need to use captions – That alone has given me so much independence! Before, I relied heavily on my captioned telephone and a captioning app for my mobile phone as well as my husband to return calls for me or listen to messages I couldn’t understand. I am now constantly amazed at how clearly I hear.

* As I mentioned in my previous post, I fell in love with listening to audiobooks…..Now I’m listening to podcasts and a part of my daily routine – While getting ready for work and when I walk the dog, I listen to inspiring podcasts. It just gets my day off to a beautiful start!

* It’s nice to take my implant off and have immediate quiet – silence is something I’ve learned to cherish. As a hearing person, I didn’t understand what real quiet was….Now having the ability to turn it on and off is quite nice.

Some of what I’m working through (and learning to exercise patience with) right now are:

* Having the feeling of being a bobble head, which in turn is throwing my balance off. Right now, I’m in a constant state of “tipsy” from the moment I wake up, until I close my eyes. It gets pretty tiring working through a foggy brain all day long – needless to say, my energy level is depleted by the end of the day.

* I have a tear in my inner ear that gives me some weird vertigo sensations when I touch to clean around my ear or inside of it. Also happens when I belch, yawn, sneeze, etc. – it’s a whole lot of fun with my allergies in full swing too……yea, NOT!

I’m told this is not normal to happen, but comforted to know all of this WILL go away (eventually) – this will not be permanent. Sometimes the body just does some crazy shit and you have to learn patience and give it time to heal.

In the meantime, I’m getting ready to start vestibular rehab, which will help me gain more confidence with my balance.

Would I do it all again?……..YOU BETCHA!

March 8, 2018 – The day I found out about the fistula/tear

New Year, New Ear!

I can’t believe it’s been just over 90 days since my cochlear implant surgery. So much has changed and continues to change with my hearing. At first everybody sounded like Darth Vader. As of today, voices still sound deep, but no longer robotic. I am able to distinguish between male and female voices. I hear sounds in nature (birds, leaves rustling, ocean waves crashing, etc.) so crisp and clear – Actually, it seems better than I remember with excellent hearing! I’m still working on music – I listen to the old school station (songs I know) and I am able to name tunes pretty quickly, but they don’t sound the same…..YET, I have hope!

On the flip side, I am getting used to having a dominant ear, whereas before both ears just sucked – I didn’t have anything to compare to or feel “off” about. Now, my implanted ear is my dominant ear. So much so, I don’t like wearing my new hearing aid for the other ear. I really only wear it to keep the nerve stimulated with sound and it does give me a little boost when I’m talking on the phone or listening to audiobooks.

My sparkly new ReSound hearing aid

Speaking of audiobooks……

If you recall, in my last post, I was just getting back behind the wheel. I decided to make the best use of my time by using the two hour commute (back and forth to work) to do some “ear rehab”. Well, I discovered audiobooks – I am in LOVE with AUDIOBOOKS…….Why?! ……..Because, I CAN FINALLY HEAR THEM! I am close to finishing my 5th audiobook – I started the beginning of January and Yes, I’m so addicted! I never thought I could enjoy something like this. I love reading and never understood how anyone could enjoy hearing a story, but now that I can hear, I GET IT!!

Sporting a Cochlear America head wrap on the beach in the Cook Islands – I have my Kanso on underneath the wrap.  It was great to hear the ocean waves!

We just returned from vacation and I share, in the video link below, all the things I can hear and my progress the last several weeks.

Happy Hearing Everyone!

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